Being insecure about ourselves is one of the hardest things to deal with; sometimes it’s about our looks, weight, relationships, etc- it sucks. I’ve always been really open about the insecurities I’ve struggled with for the past four to five years, and while some people may think of it as wanting a “pity party” or “attention seeking,” it’s far from that. We live in a world where the standards of humans is set to an unthinkable standard, it’s sad. Over the past decade we’ve had so many names in the industry open up about their insecurities and struggles, something not many people used to do. Many people have said to me “if you wanted to take your own life and had an eating disorder, why would you broadcast it so much?” and that’s a question I get a lot. I think I’m so open about the things I’ve gone through, because I just want to share my story in hopes to inspire others and let them know they aren’t alone. When I first developed an eating disorder, I had no idea what was even going through my head, or even what I was doing. I just knew that I was mending the pain when I’d make myself sick, that’s it.
People have inspired me to share my story and be open about the past events in my life, so I try and do that as much as I can. Like I said, many people see it as “attention seeking,” but it truly isn’t that. Being someone whose gone through these things and has felt so alone while dealing with it, I never want others who might be going through this to feel that it’s their fault or that they’re alone- because it isn’t and they aren’t. Asking for help and speaking up about things you go through is extremely tough; you don’t know how people will react, you’re not sure how to say what’s going on, and you don’t want to be a disappointment. I feel as someone whose gone through these things and continues to be on a path to a full healthy lifestyle, that it’s my job to use my platform and story to help and spread the word to as many people as I can. If me sharing my story can help at least one person, my life would truly be made. I have so much respect for people like Britney Spears, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez, Rose McGowan, Aaron Carter, Michael Phelps, and many more who have shared their struggles in hopes to help better themselves and others.
I encourage and pray that if anyone reading this is struggling, to please know that you aren’t alone and that you are more than worthy of the life you live. I know that it feels like you can’t hang on anymore or make it to the end of the day without crying, but I can swear to you that you will get through this. We are all one of a kind and the world needs us to bring our own sparkle to make it shine. You are not alone and someone loves you- I LOVE YOU. You will get through this and you will survive, I promise.
If you or someone you know is struggling with anything at all, please call 911, ask for help, or contact one of the numbers below.