Jeff Wittek is letting the world in like never before. The first part of his highly anticipated two-part documentary, Can’t Kill Me, is now live on his official YouTube channel, and it’s an emotional deep dive into the accident that changed his life forever.

Four years ago, Jeff was involved in a life-altering incident with a former YouTuber—one whose reputation is as questionable as his content. In Can’t Kill Me, Jeff revisits that moment, but more importantly, he shares everything that has led up to his most recent surgery. His willingness to be so open, despite public scrutiny, is not only brave but deeply inspiring.

People are quick to define what trauma should look like, when someone should move on, or how often they’re “allowed” to talk about it. But the reality is, unless you’ve lived it, you’ll never truly understand. Don’t want to hear it? Don’t listen. But don’t be a dick.

Beyond reflecting on his past, Jeff also touches on his future. He may be far from home and have little left to lose, but there’s still so much ahead. His barbershop is officially open, his tour is coming up, and there’s more in store for his fans.

The first part of Can’t Kill Me is available now, with part two dropping next week. For even more exclusive content, make sure to subscribe to Jeff’s channel and unlock footage that’s only available to his biggest supporters.

Jeff kicks off his tour tomorrow in Portland, be sure to catch him in a city near you!